I should have known that is was too good to be true. On a much earlier post I made the mistake of saying, out loud, that Matthew was a great sleeper and a self soother. HA! Talk about counting your chickens before they hatch. The last five months have been absolutely HEINOUS! He has turned out to be my worst sleeper. I am so utterly exhausted I want to cry. I am as sleep deprived as they come. How much longer until I go completely mad? On a bad night he is up every hour and ready to start his day at three or four AM. On a good night he's up two or three times and thankfully he'll sleep until seven. I've learned not to pray for help. It's kinda funny, or really, really sad, but I've talked to several Mom's and they all say the same thing. That is one prayer not to waste your time uttering. It just does not get answered in the way that you would hope. It seems to actually make things worse. I guess us Mom's are supposed to learn something painful. I've tried everything I can think of to get the little stinker to sleep. Crying it out has been a joke. A sick joke. He will cry, no, scream for hours at time. He'll get so upset that he throws up. That's when I cave. I just can't handle watching him be that upset. I hate it when people tell me that I need to let him cry. That did work for Hyrum but it hasn't worked for Matthew. After having five kids, if there is one thing I've learned it's that every child is different. I hate blanket statements like that. I think the worst part of it is that I'm so tired that I feel like I'm not a very good Mom. I'm totally inefficient and not myself. It takes so much energy to do the smallest things. All I really want to do is stare at the wall and drool. This past Saturday Mark took over and I got to sleep in, a nice little block of sleep. Later that day I was talking to Meghan and she said to me, "Mom, you look pretty. What happened to the circles and bags under your eyes?" Nice! Anyway, hopefully somehow I will survive this, because it can't last forever. Right? This too shall pass.
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AAAAHHHHHHH! That is WAY beyond horibble! I hope he gets over it too! P.S. Nice Cartoons (or not so nice when you are yourself)
Oh Natalie! What a nightmare. I'm sorry Matthew isn't sleeping. That is so horrible. I hope he starts sleeping for you soon! Hang in there and sleep in on the weekends when you can hahaha!
Sorry about your sleep deprivation. Those days will age you fast. Why do you think I'm overweight, gray, and wrinkled? I do hope Matthew becomes a better sleeper for you. You have my sympathies.
Join my club. Jake didn't start sleeping until the doc. gave him sleeping pills,at age 6. I know what you feel like. But you do live though it. And one day you look back and don't even mind it. The first time I slept all night was 6 years after Jake was born. Good luck!!
Gee, six years old! You poor thing!
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